the past few weeks... maybe even the past month or so... have been pretty rough for me.

not because anything is particularly wrong or bad... but perhaps made even tougher to endure because of the fact that i can't put a finger on the cause of my dampened mood... it just is.

in fact, i don't even know what exactly it is that i'm feeling, which makes it even more frustrating. i would say i was depressed. but i'm really not.

feeling like this - whatever it is - for absolutely no reason just bites.

i feel like i'm in need of SOMETHING but i don't even know what that something is... it really does make it ALOT harder when you don't even know what to pray for. grrr~

...maybe its all this not knowing that is driving me insane.

the past month has been SO action packed that i get tired just thinking about it! hahahaha~ well, here is my attempt at a QUICK recap:

- dinner date with young @ Lorna's(italian food! yum!)
- breakfast date with sunny & sarah @ The Mission(sooOo yummie!!)
- Taste of Downtown!!! (basically, you buy one ticket and get to sample foods from 30+ restaurants in the San Diego Downtown area... TOTALLY AWESOME!! YUM! thanks sarah for this SCRUMPTIOUS bday gift! xD)
- servant team retreat(i LOVE LOVE LOVE our youth staff! xD)
- youth group beach outing @ Coronado!!! (i LOVE LOVE LOVE this beach!!)
- two trips up to LA to see my grandparents(once because my grandma was really sick and the other time for chu-suk)
- ladies night out to PB with sarah & esther for my bday! woot~ woot~ xP
- family dinner @ my aunt's place(my uncle was visiting from korea! yay!)
- parent night preparations(the CRAZY long teacher's mtg/practice the sunday before, the early morning hours spent at Denny's the night before, as well as the entire day spent at church getting ready for the night)
- PARENT NIGHT!!! it was SO great! God is AWESOME!! xD
- post parent night hangout with the staff~ good times~ good times~ x)
- RENT!!!!! thanks carroll for the awesome bday gift!! the best part of which, OF COURSE, was that you came down to see it with me~ yay~ it was SO nice to see you and catch up! xD
- trip to Berkeley!! (i shall have to elaborate on this later~ xP thanks SO much everyone for making time for me! i LOVE and MISS you all SO much!!)
- dinner @ Indigo Grill for Ahreum's bday~ (the trout was EXCELLENT! yum~ xD)
- of course, i still have all the youth group bible studies, teacher's mtgs, morning prayers, EM servant team mtgs, YAG bible studies, YAG community groups, SAT 2 korean class, and, the newest edition, DT leaders mtgs(DT = discipleship training)... not to mention the random coffee and boba dates~ xP

wow~ i guess i have been keeping pretty busy! hehe~ well, hopefully things will calm down a little... maybe... heh xP

i'm meeting my DT girls for the first time tomorrow!! i'm excited~ and, yet, a little bit anxious, too~ keep me in your prayers everyone~ and HOLLA~ xD